As I go further into my recovery and therapy, I’m realizing how bummed I am to not have any friends doing the same. They are either developing in their addictions and will be in recovery many years down the road, they’re just too scared to work on themselves, or think they have no issues. I guess as I grow and mature more like minded people with come into my life but for now it’s pretty lonely. Makes me feel isolated and like an outcast which is ridiculous because I shouldn’t feel guilty for trying to pursue a healthy self.. Ugh, a 19 year old’s problems.
I’m going to stretch my ears up to the next size, 1/2inch (12mm). It will be the biggest my ears have ever been and I’m so excited about it. Watch out, babes.
It’s in the oven right now. I love baking so much! I can tell from the batter that the cake is gonna be delicious. I’m also gonna make a dark chocolate glaze to go on top..
Now all I need is some whipped cream. Mmmmm.
I really love my job, it’s so fun and really rewarding. I love working with food, and my co-workers are really awesome for the most part. Tomorrow I go in at 11:am so I’m excited about getting to sleep in! I can’t believe it’s almost Friday. I’m really looking forward to when the weather heats up because I’m about 100% over this cold bullshit. I wanna go longboarding!
My lips have been super bright today, I don’t know what the deal is. I think they’re regenerating.
yeah but what’s the point of stealing a bunch of napkins from Chipotle if my Carnitas bowl is just gonna leak all over them anyways ya feel me?
I have a cough.. I feel so tired and cold. Walking to work today was so painful in this unpleasant weather, I hate it.
I wanna go home and take a nap.
It doesn’t seem to want to go away, it’s actually getting worse. I fell asleep while watching Doctor Who, which is okay because it was making me kinda sad anyway. Overall I think I had a pretty good day, my anxiety was low, and my work day was productive. We had a new guy who just transferred to us on grill, he was pretty cool. Oh! And Autumn sent me a scarf in the mail! She has a matching one, how cute is that? It has little cats on it.
I’m thinking of writing some music before I go to bed, but realistically I’m probably just gonna call it an early night..